Colorblind

I used to live just on the other side of Troy and went to a different school district. Looking back, I'm pretty sure I ended up being one of the only Asians at that school, the rest being mostly Caucasian.

Once I moved to this side of Troy, I straight up didn't realize there were so many Asians. I literally didn't know there were Koreans and other Chinese people existent in Troy. I was so uneducated about race on the other side, not even knowing what certain races were, mostly because I wasn't exposed to many types at that other school.

I was full of colorblindness when I was younger since I didn't really see race, which also could've been my naivety and ignorance as a child. I remember one kid, who loved to read everything, asking if someone was related to me simply by my last name, Lee. I can't remember what he actually did, but he just made the connection that I was related to whoever he was reading about.

Because I was one of the few, I honestly just find it interesting how that he acknowledged my race but just kind of generalized it. Lee is such a common last name, but he wouldn't have known because of his limited exposure. I honestly can't blame him for thinking that way.

Now, being submerged into a more Asian area, I became aware of race. I did change my perspective, especially since I became older, but it's like I'm mostly concerned with the community I'm included in now. Being only involved with this now dominant Asian community has probably plagued me again with colorblindness since I only know or probably even care about what goes on in my specific grouping.

In A Raisin in the Sun, Lindner was saying how African Americans should be with their own, and Americans also with their own. It's kind of similar to how I subconsciously gravitate towards those similar to me but then what happens is that I only realize what's going on in what I'm involved in, with no interest in anything else. To him, that was considered safe. Naturally, it's so much easier to not think and do the wrong things instead of doing the right thing, making life easier to go by without consciously realizing race and without making sure everything said isn't misinterpreted.